Saturday, January 27, 2018


Akhir-akhir ini kampanye bopo alias body positivity semakin marak. Salut banget sebenarnya dengan movement seperti ini karena saya tinggal di negara yang mayoritas orang-orangnya masih percaya kalau ada standar kecantikan yang rigid: kulit putih, alis lebat, hidung mancung, slender body, dsb. Sayangnya, ada manusia yang pikirannya ngga ikut maju meskipun campaign semacam ini masuk akal banget. Selalu aja ngga puas dengan apa yang udah dimiliki. Tapi kadang ada juga juga orang yang ngga puas atas apa yang dimiliki orang lain.

Dear people, it's already 2018. With all those body positivity campaign, why are you still mocking others? I know I'm not the only one. This time let me share my latest experience. Beberapa waktu lalu saya sering banget dikatain, "iteman ya?". Pernyataan ini sebenarnya agak ngeledek ketika ditambahkan embel-embel, "padahal udah tinggal di Bandung, lho". Ya ada benarnya sih saya menghitam meskipun tinggal di Bandung. Lately I jog and swim on regular basis, both twice a week. Basically I have tan skin and big body figure. Kulit saya memang gelap tapi bukan berarti saya ga ada usaha buat merawatnya. I also have a big body figure, tapi bukan berarti juga ga ada usaha buat maintain to be fit. I applied sunscreen on daily basis, even before doing excercise tapi kan ya tetap bakal menggelap ketika durasi SPFnya habis. It's a human's nature to talk about others, but please do it wisely. I don't mind if people talk bad things about me, but could they just do it when I'm not in front of them?

Lucunya orang-orang yang ngeledek ini sebenarnya tau kalo saya emang seneng olahraga. Oh ya, akhir-akhir ini saya emang sering dan seneng olahraga karena jadwal kuliah yang agak longgar dan biar ngga bosen aktivitas di dalam ruangan terus. 

"Ih sombong banget olahraganya sendiri?"

Gimana ya, sebenarnya saya juga sering nyoba buat ngajak orang-orang buat olahraga cuma ya karena orang-orang yang diajak kebanyakan energi negatifnya daripada olahraganya. Ada lho orang yang mocking tiap kali diajak olahraga karena malu kalo diliatin, takut ngga sanggup, apapun deh bisa jadi alasan sampe akhirnya mending ngga usah diajak lagi daripada cuma nyebar energi negatif padahal olahraga harusnya kan bikin seneng. Saya beruntung banget waktu kuliah S1 punya teman-teman yang mau diajak olahraga dengan tujuan maintain fitness dan bikin happy. No prejudice, just us trying to move just like what we are created for. 

"Makannya dikit banget. Lagi diet ya?"

Omongan sejenis ini nih yang bikin pengen nampol orang. We never know what motivates someone to try eat less or more. In my case, my stomach isn't allowed to be filled until I feel bloated because of my health condition. Some of you might still remember that I had GERD attack about three years ago. Keluarga saya juga punya kebiasaan makan sedikit-sedikit tapi jenisnya banyak. I rarely eat in big portion kecuali emang ocassion tertentu. The last time I do mukbang was after my thesis defense. My friend and I ordered 36 sushi to celebrate our defense. Selebihnya kalo makan melebihi porsi sehari-hari itu simply karena makanan yang saya order itu porsinya besar (contohnya kwetiau Solaria) dan saya ga mau membuang makanan yang dipesan because I was taught to do so. 

Last but not least, ketika ada orang yang berusaha menerapkan hidup sehat yang dia yakini sepenuh hati tapi terkadang terlihat menyeleweng atau ngga menyerang balik orang-orang yang spreading negative energy, percayalah bisa jadi ada nilai-nilai persahabatan yang berusaha diselamatkan. I'd rather prevent myself from mocking those people, instead of losing them at once. 

Tuesday, January 2, 2018


To me, December is month to celebrate the laid-back days. The gloomy weather itself was too adorable for a melancholic person.

I finally resigned from my the office as a research intern since graduate school is about to start on January, but the re-registration had to be done before the end of December. Being a research intern was a priceless journey for my future career. From this office I learned values about being a flexible and independent person, while also enjoying a fulltime job. I'm fond that I could work with passionate people who put their heart and physical presence for the research world.

How was the rest of December?
Well, I didn't have any adventure for this month since most of my breaktime was filled with doing movie marathon. I watched various genre, eventhough it was still dominated with romance (this girl is definitely hopelessly romantic). Bella and Memes recommended me to watch Bad Genius. Seriously this movie deserves more attention. The idea of story was great. Who would even thought about bringing exam cheating as a teenage drama issue?
How was your holiday?


Tuesday, December 26, 2017


Around two or even four years ago, National Geographic published an edition that covers the teenage and early adulthood issue. The title of the Indonesian edition itself was "Otak Nan Rancak" which could be translated as "The Eager Brain" in English. According to me, it was the one of the most interesting issue that I have read so far. Even though the title was not thought-provoking, the content was beyond amazing.

Teenagers are rebel and fearless, but those are the reasons why they survived in this cruel world.

I'm 22,5 year old now and I'm already living a semi-laid-back life. Everytime I tried to remember my teenage years, the most important thing that I could chersih was actually being a younger version of myself who didn't really calculate the risk of doing something. Even though I never really skip school, but I always had the idea to avoid the subject that I didn't really like by joining an extracurricular (student club) event during school hours. This led to other things: from going home late because of practicing for a extracurricular competition without telling my parents, chilling with some friends after student club activity until a bit late to go home, rejecting my parent's advice, being not honest for a huge pile of homework, assignements, or exams because I was already running out of energy once I arrived at home, to sacrificing my least-favorite subjects' grade.

I was there.
I was the person with no action plan at all.
I was the person who loves to wake up at 8 am.
I was the person who get triggered easily.
I was the person with a non-sense behaviour.

At the age of 20, I found out that I couldn't live a messy life for a lifetime. I'm tired of being a person who care less about herself. Living a spontaneous life was totally great, but what it would meant without planning for the future? Changing myself was between a choice and a mandatory. A choice because life is basically a choice, and a mandatory because I myself wouldn't like to see myself being the person with those negative side in ten and more years from now.

By telling my case, I'm not promoting a rebelious lifestyle of a teenager. Instead I was trying to deliver a slice of my life, sharing my point of view that today's rebelious teeanger isn't always tomorrow's bad guy. Some people are just destined to experience this kind of roller-coaster to help them grow. Those kind of people sometimes just need someone need another person to guide them without judging.